Another tiring day..

Just got home from school...Grabe traffic! At around 5:00 ako umalis sa school at sa sobrang traffic ngayon lang ako nakarating. Bad trip nga kasi traffic na nga, sira pa yung aircon ng sinakyan naming FX then sinabayan pa ng gutom ko...What a day! Lagi na nga akong ginagabi sa pag-uwi eh. Pero ok lang kasi ginusto ko rin namang mapabilang sa council so that means kailangan ko talagang mag-sacrifice. Kanina, nag-meeting kami 'bout the plans for this semester. Up to now, di pa rin nga ako marunong gumamit nung ledger na binili ko. Didiskartehan ko na lang (",)

Kanina pagdating ko sa school, ewan ko ba kung bakit wala ako sa tamang mood. Para ngang ang weird ko kasi wala talaga akong gustong pansinin sa mga kaibigan ko (sama ko noh!) Ewan ko ba.. Sabi nga ni Ryan, "tulig" daw ako ngayon. Actually, d ko alam ibig sabihin non but I know it's something to do with my mood. After naman nung second class ko kanina, balik normal na ako! Then habang nagdi-discuss naman yung prof namin sa Software Research, bigla akong napaisip kung babalik ba kami dun sa dati naming topic which is Hairstyle Viewer or stick to our second topic which is File Encryption (using second level language). Nahihirapan kasi kaming maghanap ng related literature and studies for File Encryption. Sa Hairstyle Viewer naman, aside from the fact na existing na sya sa library namin, marami din kaming makukuhang sources sa library ng Adamson University. We have to come up with our decision now para alam namin kung pupunta pa ba kaming National Library tomorrow. As of this writing, medyo naguguluhan pa rin ako. I just hope na sana maliwanagan na ako before the day ends...

Rules for surviving the game of love

• Do not fall in love every time you fall in bed.
  ...Learn to detach emotionally.
  Sex does not equal commitment.
• Do not revolve your entire life around him/her.
  ...Addiction is bad for your health!
• Do not cling, act needy or demand.
  ...Doormats are for your feet, not your heart.
• It's OK to say NO!
• Stop talking so much. NEVER reveal everything.
• Do not grill them or their friends for information.
• Master the art of LISTENING.
• Treat him/her as you would your best friend.
• Friendship creates long term love and comes before sex.
• FORGET about fixing your partner. IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN.
• Your choice of partner is a reflection of who you are and who you are not!
• NEVER read their journal or go through their paperwork.
  ...If you have no trust, you have no relationship.
• Allow space and freedom between you.
  DO NOT always be available.
• Calling frequently is a turn off and signals insecurity, neediness
  and control.
• Open your eyes to lies and cheating, OR... close them,justify the bad behavior, and live with the consequences 
• Little or no eye contact? Start walking. They won'teven notice your gone.
• Anyone preoccupied with their physical appearance and dress, usually have very little or nothing to offer from within.
  ...Look beyond the physical!
• Never compromise your values.
  If you OVER give, you will lose your lover and hisrespect.
  DO NOT LOSE YOUR IDENTITY.
• December/May relationships are great. However, seasons changeand the
  May lover will sooner or later, hear the call of Spring.
• If someone REALLY wants to be with you, they will be.
• Sleeping with a married man? Don't count on him divorcing anytime soon.
• State your personal rules in the very beginning or expect them to be broken.
• If they ask to be just friends, be just that and look elsewhere for a love partner.
• If someone wants to really be with you, they will. If they keep giving reasons for not calling or say they are extremely busy, GET THE HINT, leave them alone.
• Don't ever give up your friends for him/her.
  

Bloginality

My Bloginality is ISFJ!!!

You are an ISFJ!

As an ISFJ, you are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Judging.This makes your primary focus on Introverted Sensing with Extraverted Feeling.
This is defined as a SJ personality, which is part of Carl Jung's Guardian (Security Seeking) type, and more specifically the Protectors or Nurturer.
In blogging, your journal will always be immaculate and have a touch of style. You may also feel overwhelmed because you want to be a part of everything going on. Because of your wonderful memory, other bloggers may come to you to ask about things you posted months before.

Habang May Buhay

Maraming pagbabago ang naganap sa aking buhay ng dumating ka. Noon, hinangad ko lang na maging kaibigan ka ngunit sadyang mabait ang kapalaran, higit pa sa aking hinangad ang ibinigay nya, higit pa sa isang kaibigan ang naging relasyon natin. Minahal kita at minahal mo ako sa kabila ng katotohanang ako ay may sakit na Leukemia. Bagamat alam mo ang aking karamdaman ay hindi ito naging balakid sa ating pagmamahalan. Masaya at buong tapang nating nilabanan ang aking sakit, hindi ko iniinda ang sakit na aking nararamdaman basta't alam kong na ikaw ay nasa aking tabi. Ngunit hindi natin mababago ang katotohanan na ako ay kailangan ng magpaalam. Nagpapasalamat ako sa iyo mahal sapagkat ginawa mong makabuluhan ang maikli ngunit masayang pananatili ko dito sa mundo. Sa maikling panahon na kasama kita, ipinaramdam mo sa akin na napakasarap mabuhay at magmahal.

Ang iyong mga ngiti, haplos, yakap at pagmamahal pati ang lahat ng alaala mo ang tanging baon ko sa aking paroroonan, at kung bibigyan pa ako ng isa pang pagkakataon na mabuhay muli, ikaw pa rin ang hahanapin at habang buhay na mamahalin.

Salamat sa magagandang alaala na ipababaon mo sa akin, ang tanging maiiwan ko lamang sa'yo ay ang salitang MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA, hindi lamang HABANG MAY BUHAY maging hanggang sa KABILANG BUHAY...

 
This letter was really touching.. Based from the movie A Walk To Remember..

Confused

Just wanna share this letter to you. Got this from one of the forums...

Friend,
Nagkausap kami last night. Kala ko tuluyan na nya akong nakalimutan. I was really happy upon hearing his voice. Ang dami kong naalala... Kung pano nya ako pinapatawa nung kami pa; kung pano nya ako pinasaya nung nalaman ko na iniisip pala nya ako sa mga gagawin nya gaya na lang nung sinabi nya sakin na "Kanina habang nagda-drive ako, may kotseng singit talaga ng singit. D ko na lang pinatulan dahil naisip kita"; kung pano nya ako inalagaan; kung pano nya pinararamdam sakin na mahal nya talaga ako. Nakakatuwa dahil after 4 years, andyan pa rin sya for me. There was a time pa nga we were talking to each other, and I told him na mahal ko pa rin sya. I know its wrong for me to say that. Pero nagpapakatotoo lang ako sa nararamdaman ko for him. Sabi nya sakin, mahal pa rin daw nya ako. That time, naramdaman ko yon. But I must admit it, hindi sa lahat ng panahon nararamdaman ko na mahal nya ako. May mga pagkakataon na naguguluhan ako kung mahal ba nya talaga ako o nasabi nya lang yun just to make me feel better. D ko talaga alam friend kung ano ba talaga yung nararamdaman nya para sakin...yung totoong nararamdaman nya..

Mahirap pala talagang magmahal noh! Lalo sa taong d ka nakakasiguro kung mahal ka ba talaga. Minsan tuloy kailangan mo na lang isipin na mahal ka nya talaga whether its true or not para lang maging masaya ka. Kaso hindi dapat palaging ganon kasi mahirap din umasa. Hay, pag-ibig nga naman!

Blogging Personality

I took the Blogging Personality Quiz at About Web logs and I am...

The Daily Grinder
I love blogging because it's like therapy. I can write about anything and everything that happens to me - from the food I ate to what I was doing when I heard the latest 'breaking news'. Being able to communicate with my friends (online and/or real life) through my blog is important to me.

Thank God its Friday!

Thank God its Friday!! Makakatulog na naman ako ng maayos without having a hard time waking up at 4:30 in the morning. Anyway, kanina nagkaron kami ng meeting (CCS Student Council). The first thing we do? Ayusin yung conflict between the Kalayaan and the Independiente Party. Nagkaron kasi ng conflict before pa nung election. I don't wanna talk about the issues involved here. What I want is to resolve the conflict para naman maging maayos yung samahan namin sa council. So sabi ko sa president namin na kakausapin ko na lang yung other party involved para malaman din namin yung side nila. After talking to Clyde (from the Kalayaan and now our 1st Vice President), nalaman ko yung side nya at naintindihan ko naman sya. Then kanina, sa meeting, we try to resolve na yung confict. D ko sure kung tapos na nga pero hopefully okey na.


Ito nga pala yung schedule namin (Student Council) for next week:

• July 26 - At exactly 9:45 am there will be an assembly for the rehearsal of the Induction of Officers at the JPL Auditorium
• July 27 - At 11:30 am, lunch at the Le Cafe of the Council President, Organization President and Advisers. (Ang daya nga kasi d kami kasama! Sarap pa naman ng food sa Le Cafe..) At 1:00 pm Assembly time for the Induction of Officers at the JPL Auditorium.
• July 28 - Council Meeting with Mr. Yap and with the new Council Adviser. Platforms and activities for the 1st semester will be discussed.
• July 29 - Council and Lycos Officers Meeting

Oh my God, ngayon ko lang na-realize, hectic pala sked ko for next week. Then kailangan pa naming gumawa ng Chapter 2 ng Thesis namin. Good thing, katatapos lang ng prelim exams.. At least nakabawas ng pagod at iisipin.


I'm addicted to blogging na yata. D na nga ako nagloload sa cellphone ko para makaipon lang ng internet card. Natutuwa kasi ako eh lalo na kapag may nagko-comment and yung nagsusulat sa tagboard. Sana madami akong ma-meet na friends here... Thanks nga pala sa lahat ng bumibisita sa blog ko! I really appreciate it! THANKS A LOT!

Prank Caller

May nakalimutan akong ikuwento about what happened last Friday (July 16). Habang nasa sala kami ni Lito, nag-ring yung phone..para sakin, Mark daw. Syempre napaisip ako kung sinong Mark yon. Probably, si Mark na classmate ko sa Lyceum. Hindi pala! Boses bata pa e....


K: Hello, sino 'to?
M: Hi! musta ka na? C Mark Fernandez 'to, classmate mo nung highschool sa Lycee.
K: Classmate ko ng highschool? Anong year?
M: 1st yr. Db classmate pa nga natin si Jocelyn Pacheco?
K: Classmate ko nga sya nung 1st yr. pero wala akong kilalang Mark na naging classmate ko. (D pa naman siguro ako siguro masyadong makakalimutin noh!)
K: San mo nakuha number ko?
M: Tinandaan ko lang. Syempre d ko makakalimutan yun noh kasi mahal kita! May boyfriend ka na ba?
K: Oo bakit?
M: Hindi ako naniniwala. Nakita kita wala ka namang boyfriend eh.
K: Meron na nga..Sige na, may ginagawa pa kasi ako...


Actually, ayaw pa nyang ibaba yung phone but I insist. Masama na rin kasi tingin sakin ni Lito. And besides, he's a PRANK CALLER! The last words he told me pa nga is..."Makikita rin kita!". Tama ba yun? Kala ko ba classmate ko sya nung highschool...


Then Sunday came. Nagkausap kami ng bestfriend ko, si Sheila. Nagkuwento sya about lovelife (our fave topic!) Then nung malapit na nyang ibaba yung phone, may nabanggit sya 'bout a prank caller. Sabi ko sa kanya ako din meron! Yun pala, the same guy...MARK FERNANDEZ! Parehas pa ng sinabi sa amin. Napagalaman ko na cousin pala yon ni Pacheco. Then night came, tumawag sya ulit (si Mark)...


M: Hi! namiss kita..
K: Pwede ba, tigilan mo na ako.


Then he hang up the phone. I don't wanna be rude to him kaso d na talaga sya nakakatuwa eh. Naikuwento ko nga yun sa mga sis ko and some college friends. Tumawa sila kasi d daw nila akalain na marunong akong magtaray. Yun lang. After that, d na ulit sya tumawag. Good thing!

 
Nag-start na nga pala yung prelim namin last Monday. First exam ko nung Monday is Automata ang Language Theory. Medyo kinabahan nga ako kasi 2 days akong d naka-attend ng class dahil nagcampaign kami. Buti na lang, may nagturo sa akin nung lesson...Thanks guys! Tuesday naman exam ko sa Computer System Architecture! D nga ako masyadong nakapag-review kasi inantok talaga ako. Buti na lang d agad nagsimula yung exam.. That's all for now! Update ko na lang kayo sa mga susunod kong exams and for the result... Take care!

I'm so tired...

Ngayon lang ulit ako nakapagsulat dito. This past few days kasi eh naging SOBRANG busy ako. Monday and Tuesday, campaign period. Grabe pala, sobrang nakakapagod mag-campaign. Feeling ko nga nangayayat ako kasi ba naman morning kakain kami tapos tuloy-tuloy na kami sa room to room campaign hanggang hapon. D na tuloy ako nakakapag-lunch minsan. Then Wednesday, meeting de avance naman. Bale pangatlo kami (College of Computer Studies). 2pm na kami nagsimula. Grabe talaga yung kaba ko that time. First time kasi! Everything turns out fine kaso nga lang sobrang ginabi na ako umuwi and that makes Lito angry...Sabi nya sakin d man lang daw ako tumawag na gagabihin ako. Actually, nagtatampo rin ako sa kanya that time kasi d man lang sya nagmi-missed call sa cell ko. Kaya yun, d ko sya tinawagan. (Bad ko noh?) Feeling ko kasi, di man lang nya ako naaalala. (Yan ang drama ko...) Buti nga nagkaayos kami, un nga lang, the next day pa! Pero ok na yun kaysa naman hindi, right? Then comes Thursday and Friday...election day na! Muntikan pa nga kaming ma-disqualified ng sis ko kasi nung Thursday, nakasuot kami nung T-shirt na may logo ng party namin which is Independiente. Since first time kami, d naman namin alam na bawal pala yun. Buti na lang, d kami pinabayaan nung SecGen namin na si Wilfred. Sa totoo lang, very thankful ako to Wilfred and the rest of the Independiente party dahil nandon talaga yung support nila from the start hanggang sa matapos yung eleksyon. I'm really happy dahil hindi ako nagkamali ng party na sinalihan. Nandon kasi yung bonding kahit na magkakaiba kami ng college. Sabi pa nga sa amin ni Wilfred na kahit na anong mangyari, matalo man o manalo, magkakapamilya kami! Tapos Friday, bilangan na rin ng votes. Wrong timing nga kasi sumama yung pakiramdam ko. Kaya yun, d ako nakasama to witness yung canvassing ng ballots. Anyway, our president texted me and told me na nanalo nga daw ako. Syempre, ako naman very happy but at the same time medyo naisip ko yung another year of stress since may thesis ako. Pero come to think of it, d naman ako ilalagay ni Lord dito kung hindi ko kakayanin, right? Sana lang, hindi maapektuhan yung studies ko and magampanan ko sana yung duties and responsibilities ko. But I know, I can do it! Hopefully...

Thoughts to Ponder

"A dream is a wish your heart makes." -Jiminy Cricket
Most relationship advice, including ours, puts a central focus on how to make your own personal dreams come true. But, if everyone is going around thinking how can I make "my" dreams come true, what happens to our partner's dreams? It seems to me that if we all spent even half the energy helping our partner get the relationship of their dreams, we'd all be happier for it. This weekend I invite you find out what it is that your partner desires from a dream relationship and endeavor to help do your part in creating it.

From Lovingyou.com

Campaign Period

First day of campaign today...(I've got butterflies on my stomach) Kinakabahan tlaga ako dahil syempre first time ko.. D2 lang me computer shop. Wala pa kasi yung iba naming kasama. Un lang for now.. Good luck sa amin!

Independiente Party (College of Computer Studies) 

Election Calendar

• June 16 ~ Filing of COC
• June 30 ~ Deadline of filing of COC
• July 1-3 ~ Verification of Grades
• July 5 ~ Announcement of Official Candidates
• July 6-10 ~ Posting of Election Materials
• July 12-13 ~ Room to Room Campaign
• July 14 ~ Presidential Debate
• July 15-16 ~ Student Election
  
  Vote for Independiente Party!

Picture at Westin

Picture taken at Westin Philippine Plaza during my friend's debut last June 7, 2004. 

Knowing What's Best

Got this one from I Kissed Dating Goodbye… Ganda kasi kaya ayon, kinopya ko and decided to publish it in my blog..

Knowing What's Best
In the past, the starting point of my relationships was what I wanted instead of what God wanted. I looked out for my needs and fit others into my agenda. Did I find fulfillment? No, I found only compromise and heartache. I not only hurt others, I also hurt myself, and most seriously, I sinned against God.
But when I changed my attitude and made pleasing God and blessing others my first priorities, I found true peace and joy. When I stopped seeing girls as potential girlfriends and started treating them as sisters in Christ, I discovered the richness of true friendship. When I stopped worrying about whom I was going to marry and began trusting God's timing, I uncovered the incredible potential of serving God as a single. And when I stopped flirting with temptation in one-on-one dating relationships and started pursuing righteousness, I uncovered the peace and power that come from purity. I kissed dating goodbye because I found out that God has something better to give.

I'm going to run..

Kahapon, I submitted my certificate of candidacy for this year student council election. I'm running as auditor under the Independiente Party. Actually, d ko nga alam kung anong nakain ko at pumayag ako na tumakbo eh. Kasi dati pa nila ako pinapatakbo kaso ayaw ko talaga. Medyo nagsisisi nga ako dahil naisip ko, sana dati pa eh tumakbo na ako. Hay, ganon talaga...nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Ngayon nga eh nagdadalawang isip pa ako 'bout that but after na nakapagisip-isip ako eh I finally decided to run. Kanina, may meeting kami. Buti nga eh hindi na nila ako kinulit na tumakbong President (would you believe?) Kasi nung last meeting namin, ako yung ninonominate nila for that position o kaya daw 1st Vice-President. Grabe talaga, d ko ma-imagine...Well, kahit na anong gawin nila d talaga ako tatakbo for that position kasi ba naman feeling ko d ako karapat-dapat for that kasi syempre ngayon pa lang ako tatakbo tapos ganon agad yung magiging position ko! (Asa pa ako...) Anyway, lapit na campaign at habang papalapit na rin ang election eh lalo akong kinakabahan. What if matalo ako? Or kung manalo man, magampanan ko kaya yung duties and responsibilities as auditor? Hay, grabe na 'to! That's all for now...